The place i am at as of today is a very conflicted one. My relationship is out of my hands.....truely never been in this position before. To love someone but not be "in love" is a concept i never thought about before and how little things in a relationship can make all the world to one person .Sadly....LISA SOSA.... a co worker of mine @ NSA died late last night which makes me very sad even as i type this. Even though I wasnt the bestest of friends with that person we (in the ems community) feel a sense of brotherhood/Sisterhood/ Family. Cause all of us know what the other goes through physically/Mentally at work and how demanding it can be on our lives. When ur at a job for (X) amount of hrs for (X) days a week with only one person at ur side...you form a bond or a hate for that person (not everyone clicks).Especially in EMS ur family usually is small. I guess it made me realize the age old saying that "life is too short ". It truely is cause things change all the time and when i look back even a year ago I was in a different place. I always try to think i am progressing in life even when you have time to reflect it may not seem that way. I know its not to much to ask someone
"I want to feel like I matter"
-Chris F
